i hate being weak

i got in my standing frame today and i walked with my walker twice today. i feel more weak and i don't feel like i'm baring my weight as much since i had the seizure. i'm not going to be able to go swimming because i have my period, so i won't be able to go swimming the way it is, whether i had a seizure or not. i hope that i'll gain my strength back soon so i can be up to my normal self. everyone keeps telling me not to push it but i don't want to get weak either. the pca's are trying not to put me in my walker or standing frame, just to make their jobs easier. caroline claimed that i wasn't suppose to walk with my walker but robin (the site manager) seen me walking yesterday morning and didn't have a problem with it. i really hope that i get back to my normal strength soon because i'm not to my fullest capabilty right now.